What If?

I just was having a passing thought that I am so blessed to know of Jesus. What if I lived in a country that didn't even know he was, or worse yet, knew who he was, and forbid us to love him? I can't imagine not having the freedom to read my Bible, and sadly, I must admit I was ashamed to read the Bible in public here in the US, for fear of what people would think?! Wow, who care's anyways? Those who give you a hard time about reading the Bible, are the one's we are commanded to share His Word with.

Now that I am a University student majoring in Biblical Studies, I must admit, I am missing something; something that I don't know how to obtain, but feel like God and I could be alot closer. Understand this, this is my fault. He is open, and willing, and standing there with His arms wide open. Is it satan holding me back, or is it me? Is it an addiction, or fear of having to do what my flesh doesn't want to do. Sounds to me like selfishness. It's funny it probably is selfishness, but I want so badly to have the relationship with Jesus. It sounds to me after reading this, that the problem is me, and what am I going to do about it. What if I change? I know I will have what I am looking for, love!
What If? What do you think?

The Promise of Morning Book Review

I haven't read a fiction book in a really long time, but I must tell you that this was a good book! The Promise of Morning is written by Ann Shorey, and is published by Revell, a division of Baker Publishing Group. Now that you know were to find this book, I will share my thoughts with you. I love "settler" books, back in the 1800's, I guess because I just adored the "Little House on the Prairie" television show. If you were into that too, you are going to love this book!

The setting is in the 1840's in the Illinois frontier, with a family of Matthew Craig who is a pastor and his wife Ellie. Ellie is a unique character but with emotions and feelings, that are all too common in the 2010's. Even though the setting was in 1840's, the pain and loneliness that she goes through after burying three children. Ellie shares with us, what it is like for a mother to grieve the loss of her children, and the depth and despair about losing one's self along the way. While Ellie is facing these feelings, her young marriage is suffering as well, to include Matthew her husband; a young pastor finding out who he is and what he stands for. This is the second book in the series, "At Home in Beldon Grove."

To anyone who has lost, love, and grown through their situation will relate to Ellie and Matthews life in such a way that the same would apply to us today over 160 years ago!

Not going to be a spoiler, but I reccommend this book to anyone. The book not only covers relationships, marriage, family, settlers, but it also has another twist to the book that you have to check out for yourself. Let me know what you think.

Available March 2010 at your favorite bookseller from Revell, a division of Baker Publishing Group.

Wisdom to understand your man.... A reading

I am reading Debi Pearls book, "Created to be his Help Meet.." I am currently in chapter eight, which the title reads, "Wisdom to Understand your man." The side comment on the chapter states, " A wise woman learns to adapt to her husband." Wow

Anthony and I have been together a decade, and I can honestly say that to me previously, my thoughts were, "He is just so complicated, I don't understand him." When actually, the author goes on to describe generally three types of men. It stood out clear as day for me, Anthony is a Mr. Command Man... The authors states that these men are born with a great share of dominance, and are natural born leaders. The are great commanders, and their main goal is to get a job completed with precision, and often do more than is required of them.

Mr. command man is often known for expecting their wives to wait of them hand and foot, and more often they do not want their wives to be involved in projects that would interfere with taking care of them. They expect extreme loyalty, faithfulness, love and obedience. Often as the military perfects, a Command Man see's the bigger picture and strives to help the greater number. The needs of the many, outweigh the needs of the few.

The author goes on to say, that if a wife learns to enjoy the benefits of taking the second seat, and if she does not take offense to his headstrong aggressiveness, she will be the one sitting at his right side being adored, because this kind of man will totally adore his woman and exalt her. After all these years, I finally got it, Anthony treats me like a Queen, and there is nothing that I want, that I don't already have. Like I said before, he adores me and protects us all from any and all harm.

I dont understand why it took so many years for me to get this, the first few years, since I was a single mom, it seems like all we did was bump heads. I was too independent, and often did what was good for me, and not for the benefit of the family.

It is my hope and prayers for us as woman of the home, to get to know early on what makes our man tick, and what is relevent for maintaining your home in harmony. I have found out that there is really not any Titus 2 woman out there, that I have met that have been willing or able to guide me.. Most of the things I have learned, have been trial and error........

I hope that this can help others understand how to make their family run more peacefully..... Marriage is alot of work...but it is well worth the fight.